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The Bookshelf

A few months ago, we put an order in on the Ikea website. A few months later, the pieces arrives. Two cowhide rugs, a few bookcases for our daughter’s room and a bookshelf for my office. For the last few weeks, the bookshelf had been in my office, in it’s box, leaned up against the window sill. Every time I walked in and saw it, I felt a sense of shame.

Hear me out.

I hadn’t attempted to build the bookshelf. It just sat there, waiting for the day my husband would assemble it. The thought had crossed my mind that maybe I should assemble it, but I ignored that thought. I had tried to put together a bookshelf a few years ago. My husband and I had purchased his and hers matching bookshelves from Target to put into our bedroom. We decided to have a competition to see who could assemble theirs faster. I thought I would actually win. Except I didn’t. In the time it took him to assemble the whole bookshelf, I had assembled nothing. Not a piece. It’s embarrassing to admit but my ego was bruised. I labeled myself as someone who couldn’t assemble furniture. I promised myself I would never feel that embarrassment again.

For years, I didn’t assemble a thing. If a screwdriver was required, I was out. I know it frustrated my husband – he singlehandedly assembled our entire home when we moved.

And so this bookshelf sat in my office. And one day, I decided that I was going to get over my fear and put the damn shelf together on my own. I realized that I avoided doing things that I might fail at and this was one of them.

The hardest part was just opening the box. Opening the box meant I was committing myself to either assemble the bookshelf or attempt to and admit failure.

Building the actual bookshelf was not difficult. I had the instructions, I had the screwdriver and I had the pieces. I had my own motivation to assemble it and I did it.

I was proud as hell of myself. It may be just a simple bookshelf to some, but in my office, it’s a reminder that I can fail and then succeed. Now the only issue is that it’s a mounted bookshelf. I’ll leave that part to my husband.

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Five Thangs Friday #5

I. Am. Exhausted. Mentally. Physically. ALL OF IT! Work this week has been rough, but ya’ll, we made it! It is Friyay! So here’s my five favorites from this week!

#1. Meal prep!

Since we moved, I haven’t prepped my meals for the week which has led me to eating whatever leftovers I could find and some snacks for lunch. This past weekend, I finally prepped my meals and they were bomb diggity ya’ll! I had a based of sprouted ancient grains with some kale dressed in a tahini zucchini dressing! On top was some slow cooked pineapple chicken and roasted baby peppers. My tummy was so happy this week, and my mornings were less frantic! 10 out of 10, will prep again!

#2. Our new reading area

I’ve always liked the look of the Ikea Poang chair, but we didn’t have the space for it at our old place. In our new place, there’s a small room attached to the master bedroom that was screaming reading nook. So we made one! As you can see, we have his and hers bookshelves, as well as his and hers Poang chairs! (Side note: I attempted to help with the assembly of these chairs but I was extremely unsuccessful)

#3. Snail mail from sissy

I have a younger sister named Sandra who has a learning disability. We talk on the phone daily and I try to see her as often as possible, but when we can’t she’ll write me a letter! This is a letter I got from her this past week and it absolutely made my day. Apparently, we will be going into business together!

#4. Hands on math

This is a picture from my classroom today where a student was learning to add by himself. Moments like these melt my heart. I absolutely adore when a student is invested in their learning and trying their hardest. This kiddo here was able to complete his first independent addition problem today! Props to him ya’ll!

#5. Summer jobs!


Last but not least, I got my job offer for the summer in this week! I am excited to say that I will be working at Teach for America as a resource specialist this summer!

That’s all I have for you folks! This weekend is a busy one, with real estate training all day Saturday. I am hoping to get my booty in the gym Sunday, and do some epic meal planning and prepping! Hope you all have a grand ole weekend!